Sometimes I imagine my life without you to remind myself how great my life with you is.

This is a painful exercise, which to some people may seem useless. After all, if I know my life with you is great, why should I go through the process of imagine it without you. Thing is, pain is one of the most effective triggers for gratefulness and awareness. Phrases like I didn’t know how happy I was until I lost X are a great reminder of how unaware people are about their reality and about the things that really make them happy. Point is, we tend to learn a lot through pain and, while I am aware of other ways to be aware and grateful for having you in my life, I must admit that this painful process makes me feel alive. The pain intensifies what I feel.

There is a risk attached to this process, tho. What happens if one day I feel reliefed rather than grateful? Will I be able to accept this faith?